“I vomited whenever I had an orgasm,” says Will Smith, who slept with countless women at 16 to forget the scars of his first love affair, but only scars.

Will Smith

Hollywood star Will Smith (53), in his autobiography ‘Will’, revealed his experience of being brokenhearted by the woman he truly loved for the first time when he was 16.

At the time, he was dating a woman named Melanie. But Melanie had an affair with Will Smith. After learning this, Will Smith recalled that “it felt like my heart was breaking.”

Will Smith, who was broken for the first time, said, “After that, I slept with several women to forget the hurt of the broken heart. Meaningless sleep continued without emotions, and rather serious mental problems arose.”

“Every time I slept with any woman and had an orgasm, I started feeling guilty,” Will Smith said. I ended up vomiting every time I had an orgasm. It was all psychological,” he added.

Will Smith

“I’ve only slept with two women before I got kicked by Melanie,” said Will Smith. Since then, I have slept with countless women. I believed that the wound would heal, but I was mistaken. I was hoping for a meaningful meeting, but it was all to no avail.”

He said, “Every time I slept with a new woman, I prayed, ‘God, please, let this woman be the only one who will love me.’ But the psychological wounds only grew bigger,” he said.

Will Smith and wife Jada Pinkett Smith

He later met his wife, Jada Pinkett Smith, whom he had been married to for 26 years. The two married in 1997. But Will Smith and Jada did not have a normal marriage. Will Smith once said, “My wife, Jada, never believes in customary marriage.”

“Jada grew up in a family that was different from a traditional marriage,” said Will Smith. “I knew that and I respect that,” he said. Will Smith is married to Jada, but admits that the two are “open relationship” (a couple but free to meet the other if either of them wants).

He remembered the first time he met Jada. “I always had to try to please Jada. During the first four months of meeting him, I had to have a drink every day and have sex several times. It was even like a competition. I thought it was either satisfying this woman or I was going to die.”

Will Smith

BuzzfeedAccording to Will Smith, he eventually sought help from a psychologist. “I got married, but it was still hard for me to think of other women,” he confessed. “At the time, I was drawn to the actress Halle Berry and several other women. The psychologist said he could ‘think like that’. He taught me that it’s okay to be honest with yourself.”

“The psychologist helped me realize that I’m not trash for thinking like that.” In the words of Will Smith.

“Jada and I trust each other and seek freedom,” Will Smith said. Marriage should not be a prison. Of course, we do not recommend our method to others. But the freedom and unconditional support that Jada and I gave each other is the best expression of love.”

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